Exhaustion is starting to set in….Can you tell it is the week before Christmas? And truthfully, it really has nothing to do with the “activities” of this season. Granted we have 2 more parties to bake for or attend. 3 more gifts to purchase and wrap, a Christmas Eve Service, delivery to a local hospital to make, gluten free items to bake, and Christmas morning service to prepare for and plan (which means an early Christmas morning so we can have some family time together before Scott leaves the house.) I know that it was very hard to wake up and get going this morning But I also know that the exhaustion is coming from a different place. We have been dealing with some pretty deep, life changing counseling situations over the last several weeks. Along with some serious illnesses, a few deaths, and other things that will remain unspoken. I think Scott and I are both concerned that we are becoming spiritually, emotionally and physically exhausted. And I want to continue to have things to “give” to others. Exercise is becoming part of our weekly routine (even with me kicking and screaming because sometimes my joints, though so much better, do not want to cooperate) and healthy food is becoming so much more of the norm. We are slowly making the transition to more natural foods, which will benefit my whole family and be so much easier after Christmas!
Scott and I passionately love our Savior! We desire to want other people to know Him, to grow in His love, and to see life through His eyes. I know that our hearts and minds are going through a complete transformation at this time in our lives. Throughout scripture we see people, especially Paul, who come to a point where they have nothing left to give, which is a very hard, lonely place to be. John MacArthur says God was bringing Paul to the “point at which he could not fall back on any intellectual, physical, or emotional resource.” And 2 Corinthians 1:9 tells us why, “In order that we should not trust in our selves but in God who raises the dead.” What comforting words to read but so hard to believe sometimes.
I am not a crier by any means but I knew I was reaching that point of mental, emotional, spiritual exhaustion yesterday as I was driving home from work, listening to “How Great Thou Art” on my cd and was crying out to God. In the time of worship, I was reminded that even though I never had anything to “give” I need to remember that it has always been about Jesus. A sweet act of affirmation followed my car ride and lifted my spirits even further. My focus has been on the situations and times constraints instead of the One who Helps me. Pushing harder ultimately leads to exhaustion because God never intended for US to accomplish His purpose for our lives. I need to completely embrace my weaknesses so that the fullness of God’s glory and power will be displayed through me!
He has said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for power is perfected in weakness.” Most gladly, therefore, I will rather boast about my weaknesses, so that the power of Christ may dwell in me. 2 Corinthians 12:9